Going Home

I am homesick the most when things are hard in my life. I'm pretty independent by nature but every once in a while I feel like I need to go home and re-center, hide for a while. I had the opportunity this last weekend to go home and take a breather, boy did I need that!

It really felt like I was butting heads with everyone and everything that came up I took as a personal attack! Sometimes I don't know how people can live with me! Anyhow I was able to get away for the weekend and my husband and I drove down to the coast to my parents house. We were both born and raised on the ocean so seeing the water as we drove over the hill into town was so calming.

Every month my mom who is a worship leader would facilitate a night of worship and invite local Christian musicians and other worship teams to play and share their faith. Because of some problems inside the church, the monthly meeting were put on hold. This last weekend my parents hosted a night of worship at their home and had some great musicians and friends play and worship together. I'm telling you it was like rain after a drought. I had so missed these people who I "grew up with" and fellowshipped with for a long time. There is nothing like a reunion of believers, those who have deep love for each other. It brought tears to my eyes but there was no crying, because we were all so happy to be together. These musicians are phenomenal to boot. It was such a blessing.

The funny thing was that it opened my eyes to something I hadn't realized I was doing. I was getting frustrated with new friends I met because I expected them to be like the old ones I knew. I expected that deep fellowship, the kind that comes from knowing and walking with people for years, out of brothers and sisters I've known for only months.

This is where I need grace and love to come in....I keep talking about this in my blog because it seems to be my recurring theme.....more grace more love, keep teaching me Lord....

Long story short, I got a break, it was great, great people, great worship, I lost my voice, and wouldn't have it any other way!!!